(Also see Resentment, Resentment Inventory, Resentment Inventory Example & Fear Inventory.)
Sex inventory…
The instructions are: a) write who I’ve hurt, b) write who ELSE I’ve hurt, c) write what happened, and d) write what I should have doneinstead.
Here’s an example:
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1st Column – Who?
College girl
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2nd Column – Who else?
Her husband
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3rd Column – What happened?
Slept with her knowing she was married, and pretended I cared about her.
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4th Column – What should I have done instead?
Left her alone. At the very least I should have masturbated rather than destroy someone’s marriage.
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As a conscienceless addict, I filled my emptiness by manipulating women and using them for sex. I used a foreign girl in college fully aware that she was married. I used my gifts to manipulate her, taking her into piano rooms on campus and playing Chopin while I stared into her eyes. From piano recitals to piano room seductions… this is what I became. I acted like I cared about women just to have sex with them, and then I got as far away as possible. I showed little or no remorse at all. And when I showed it, I never really felt it inside. Yes, I knew it was wrong, but satisfying lust was far more important. That’s the sort of behavior that must cease forever if I plan on staying sober.
God, please help my conscience to grow and grow, and give me the power and the willingness to never ignore it…
God, please help my conscience to grow and grow, and give me the power and the willingness to never ignore it…