I wasn’t gonna post the search results anymore, but you gotta see this. I took a few screen shots of the stats page over the course of 2 hours yesterday afternoon. I know we prefer to ignore reality sometimes, but just see for yourself. Too bad it is no longer PC to discuss the true nature of our addiction and spiritual malady for what it is. Not only are we keeping addicts from getting better, but muzzling free speech and thought is the road to serfdom, my friends. We’ve seen this before and trust me, it doesn’t end well.

     Before we get to the searches, please allow me to shred one of the most destructive and asinine recovery slogans out there, namely relapse is part of recovery. I call these nonsensical cliche’s ‘supermarket wisdom’ or ‘waiting room wisdom’ – you know, nickel and dime wisdom you pick up on sale that makes no sense and is designed by some marketer who has no clue about anything. Yes, these slogans are designed by treatment centers themselves. Why? Well, there is no money is becoming recovered. There is only money is relapse, heartache and destruction. Trust me, no one cares about your 401k.

     One of the very things that can keep an addict sober is the opportunity for he or she to challenge him or herself. When I look at the totality of my recovery and what I’ve gained and accomplished since I took Steps (a free program minus a Big Book, a pen and some paper), the suggestion that I can relapse along the way (and in doing so destroy everything I have worked so hard for and break mom’s heart again) is so stupid and ignorant it hurts. The new age, progressive model of addiction is crippling addicts and warping their view of recovery. This is what happens when you stay in the classroom too long and develop a superiority complex. Oh well.

     The point is that part of the excitement and the novelty of living soberly and growing spiritually is the challenge we take on never to self-destruct, i.e. never to relapse. To beat a dead horse, relapse is NOT part of recovery. That’s the very point of recovery. You don’t relapse. No, we don’t need to beat ourselves up should we relapse, as self-pity is a form of selfishness, but we don’t send addicts home from treatment with the notion that ‘hey, buddy, don’t worry if you relapse, it’s part of recovery dude! Isn’t that awesome?!’

     HUH???

     Newsflash: that is EXACTLY what addicts want to hear. Yippee, I get to relapse! No big deal?! And you’ll still love me and accept me for exactly who I am (a delusional, active drug addict)? Sorry, but that is just retarded. Oh wait, sorry again, not PC? Should I just cut my vocal chords out? You have to understand that we don’t hear, ‘If I happen to mess up, I’m not gonna beat myself up’, which is disturbing in and of itself. We hear, ‘If the going gets tough, I can always relapse if I need to.’ Do you see how this sort of attitude promotes the antithesis of recovery and the results you really want?

Dec. 5, 2015 Searches – Partial

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(and from today, the 6th) people in AA are so self involved

     “Selfishness-self centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles… So our troubles, we think, are basically of our own making. They arise out of ourselves, and the alcoholic is an extreme example of self-will run riot, though he usually doesn’t think so. Above everything, we alcoholics must be rid of selfishness. We must, or it kill us! God makes that possible. And there often seems no way of entirely getting rid of self without His aid. Many of us had philosophical convictions galore, but we could not live up to them even though we would have liked to. Neither could we reduce our self-centeredness much by wishing or trying on our own power. We had to have God’s help.” – Alcoholics Anonymous, p.62

God, please help all of my fellow alcoholics and addicts out there who still suffer find their way back to You…